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[jerks his hand back, remembering himself the moment their eyes meet]

—sorry, ah—

[strikingchords]

[sucks in a slightly audible breath]

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[swallows]

This was done to you for assisting me, wasn’t it?

[strikingchords]

[stares at him wordlessly, still off balance; it's a kind of answer]

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[fuck. his hand is still hovering in the air where he pulled it back. his tone is airless; a little bleak]

Lan Zhan…

[strikingchords]

[tilts his chin up, waiting for whatever Wei Wuxian plans to say, shoulders tensed]

...

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This could have crippled you. Killed you.

[strikingchords]

It did not.

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You shouldn’t have risked such things for me.

[strikingchords]

...

I know what I should and should not do.

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[turns away a bit, scrubbing at his eyes]

—stubborn man.

[strikingchords]

[...

relaxes very faintly, though he's still watching Wei Wuxian under his eyelashes, wary]

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You and Shijie. And for what…? For what.

[strikingchords]

...

[quietly...]

Wei Ying, as well.

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I couldn’t keep anyone alive. I couldn’t keep anyone safe. Not even myself. Why couldn’t you have—

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[



he's going to reach for his hand again]

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[he lets it be taken, but his fingers spasm violently, right on the edge of a flinch]

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[he just holds it as lightly as a sparrow in his fingers, not trying to demand a grip in return or shying away]

...

The outcome was past bearing.

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[helplessly, lost]

What?

[strikingchords]

[just, tired]

Many things led to this conclusion. Not all were your doing.

Would likely feel the same. Do, in part. And you would return the same reply to me.

[laughitoff]

I don't want you to get hurt. I don't want that for--anyone, now.

[strikingchords]

[soft]

All right.

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[his shoulders slump; it's hard to tell if it's from relief or defeat.]

[strikingchords]

...

We have kept each other safe before.

I would try.

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...

I can't stop you, can I.