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[laughitoff]

When have you forced or abandoned me.

[strikingchords]

...

What I just recounted. When I have pressed concerns on you before.

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[this is fucking hideous]

No.

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[it's his turn not to know what to say immediately...]

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Do you know why I was so angry, when we arrived here?

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[shakes his head a little; well, he thought it was self-evident, but...]

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Because -- until that point, where I mistook what was happening -- I thought you were a righteous man.

[strikingchords]

[a very slow blink...

softly, after a moment]

I don't understand.

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[slowly]

To my knowledge -- and I truly can't answer for Nightless City because I truly don't remember it -- you've never forced what I didn't want upon me. You've fought with me and evidenced concern. And you've never abandoned me; you had your own lives and your own duties, and they didn't very well line up with mine.

You've always been so upright. I hated the thought that you gave it up at the end, to kill some harmless civilians. I'm glad I was wrong about that.

[strikingchords]

[Wei Wuxian feels his hand trembling.



it steadies, after a little while. calmly, only a little airless:]

I see.

[laughitoff]

[...chances a look at his face...]

[strikingchords]

[SEE ICON. staring at the water]

[laughitoff]

[squeezes his hand, just a little, perhaps the first acknowledgement that he remembered they were holding hands since they fell in the springs]

[strikingchords]

[...

startles a little and turns to blink at him instead '^']

[laughitoff]

Truly too hard on yourself.

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...

It felt as if I had abandoned you. You protected us many times. Me. Your intentions were noble. Yet, you were allowed to sacrifice, or maligned.

[brushes Wei Wuxian's wet hair back from his face, ugh]

That you were not more bitter on your own account shows generosity of spirit.

[laughitoff]

[laughs a little hoarsely]

You make me sound like some benevolent priest, or a martyr. I’ve never been either.

[strikingchords]

You are not. You are Wei Ying.

[sighs]

[laughitoff]

And you're Lan Zhan.

Show some generosity of spirit to yourself too, ah? Life strikes us all hard enough; why would you add to it yourself?

[strikingchords]

That is for you to judge.

But, I had not meant to assume your feelings.

[laughitoff]

[hhhh]

I think there's been a lot of that going on for both of us; don't you?

[strikingchords]

It seems so.

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...

Please don't hurt yourself further.

[strikingchords]

Hurt myself?

[quiet]

[laughitoff]

[he doesn't answer.]