The memory within is very long and garbled and full of blackouts as well, too much so to make one contiguous experience. However, in summary, what Lan Wangji can make out, can relive in brief broken flashes, is this:
Wei Wuxian was thrown into the Burial Mounds, an enormous mass graveyard so intensely corrupted with the resentful energy of the dead that it spelled certain death for anyone who entered. As Lan Wangji knows from the memory he received when he entered the fox, he was in terrible shape on arrival, and in no shape to defend himself the way he might normally be able to. For lack of other food he ate the dead; for lack of other drink he drank death-corrupted water where he found it. He was desperate to find a way out and take revenge on the ones who had put him there. Morality lost all meaning; humanity lost all meaning; time lost all meaning.
He came to the edge of death regardless, but death in the Burial Mounds has a life of its own, and it resonated with his desire, and kept him on that edge instead of letting him fall all the way over. In that state, still without other reasources, he reached for the energy of the place and tried to master it. It was a long and horrific process -- Lan Wangji gets the very definite knowledge that resentful energy is painful to the body and corrosive to the mind -- but he was able to get it under control enough to make his way out and escape, with some of the ghosts of the place in tow.
He lived by his own willpower, but only because it let him, because he was able to promise it things which appealed: revenge, ruin, feeding. And his connection to it remained even when he left, and would for the remainder of his life.]
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The memory within is very long and garbled and full of blackouts as well, too much so to make one contiguous experience. However, in summary, what Lan Wangji can make out, can relive in brief broken flashes, is this:
Wei Wuxian was thrown into the Burial Mounds, an enormous mass graveyard so intensely corrupted with the resentful energy of the dead that it spelled certain death for anyone who entered. As Lan Wangji knows from the memory he received when he entered the fox, he was in terrible shape on arrival, and in no shape to defend himself the way he might normally be able to. For lack of other food he ate the dead; for lack of other drink he drank death-corrupted water where he found it. He was desperate to find a way out and take revenge on the ones who had put him there. Morality lost all meaning; humanity lost all meaning; time lost all meaning.
He came to the edge of death regardless, but death in the Burial Mounds has a life of its own, and it resonated with his desire, and kept him on that edge instead of letting him fall all the way over. In that state, still without other reasources, he reached for the energy of the place and tried to master it. It was a long and horrific process -- Lan Wangji gets the very definite knowledge that resentful energy is painful to the body and corrosive to the mind -- but he was able to get it under control enough to make his way out and escape, with some of the ghosts of the place in tow.
He lived by his own willpower, but only because it let him, because he was able to promise it things which appealed: revenge, ruin, feeding. And his connection to it remained even when he left, and would for the remainder of his life.]